Alchemy
of Transformation: Coagulatio,
Trial by Earth
By Bob Bongiovanni, MA
Behold the
mystery of the earth: as that brings forth so must thou bring forth. The earth
is not that body which is brought forth, but is the mother of that body; as
also thy flesh is not the spirit but is the mother of the spirit.
And in both of them, in the earth and in thy flesh, the Light of the
clear Deity is hidden, and it breaks through and gathers to itself a body for
each after its kind.
As the mother is, so also is the child: man's child is the soul which is
born in the astral moving from the flesh; and the earth's child is the grass,
the herbs, the trees, silver, gold, and all mineral ores.
Out of the earth
sprang grass, herbs and trees; and in the earth silver, gold, and all manner of
ore came to be. In the deep above the earth, sprang the wonderful forming of
power and virtue.
--Jacob
Boehme, 16th Century German
mystic
strongly influenced by alchemy
One of the brilliant
insights of Carl Jung involved alchemy. For centuries, the works of the
alchemists had lain neglected in the dustbin of history, dismissed as childish
attempts at chemistry. But Jung
rediscovered alchemy as something of immense value. To Jung, the alchemists had laid out, perhaps inadvertently,
the basic psychological and spiritual processes of transformation, paralleling
his own insights, but at a much greater level of sophistication and
detail. In particular, the alchemists
had used powerful symbolism to capture the essence of each phase of
transformation, distilled through many thousands of experiments. The alchemists talked about
transformation of physical matter, taking it from a rough and unrefined
substance – prima materia, first substance – to the most sublime
essence – gold or the philosopherÕs stone. But, in their observations and descriptions, the alchemists
actually described taking fixed, stagnant aspects of personality – shadow
– and transforming it through the process of individuation, thereby
releasing humans to achieve the highest potential. We are, at our essence, aspects of the transcendent and
eternal Self, and alchemy describes the means by which we live out that truth.
The alchemists described
many different transformational processes. In the next few weeks, we will explore four of the main ones
– trials associated with earth, air, fire, and water. This week, we discuss trial by earth.
In the alchemistÕs
laboratory, certain experiments involved taking liquids and gases and
solidifying them. For instance,
water solidifies into ice when cooled.
A material that is liquefied in a solvent will become solid once the
solvent is evaporated. It is this
process that inspired alchemical texts on coagulatio – the process of
coagulating, or turning something into earth, meaning something solid.
What does coagulation mean,
psychologically and spiritually?
In essence, coagulatio means attaching contents of the psyche to an
ego. ThatÕs it, plain and
simple. The rest is just
elaboration on this theme.
Action coagulates
The alchemists noted that
some substances cannot become solidified until they have been stirred or
churned. There are many creation
myths along these same lines – that the universe started as a vast ocean
and the creator needed to churn it up, to bring the solid material to the
surface, in order for the earth to be ready for human habitation.
What might this mean
psychologically, in Jungian terms?
Edinger notes: ÒAction and
activity promote ego development.
Exposing oneself to the storm and stress of action, the churn of
reality, solidifies the personality.Ó (p. 85)
In alchemy, the substance
that needs to be solidified is mercury or quicksilver. The alchemists were fascinated with
quicksilver – a metal that is also a liquid – and saw it as a
physical manifestation of the spirit that lives hidden in matter. In other words, mercury is the
autonomous spirit of the archetypal psyche. It goes where it will, independent of the egoÕs will. It is the spirit of archetype as well
as complex. At times, it seems to
undermine the intentions of the ego.
To coagulate quicksilver is to align it with ego, and that is nothing
less than the ultimate fulfillment of individuation. Ego connected to, in intimate relationship with,
transcendent Self.
Coagulatio is not a passive
process. It means taking action,
particularly difficult action.
What might we call someone who resists coagulatio? Jung termed them Òpuer eternisÓ –
the perpetual child. Rather than
endure the struggle and messiness of actually coming down to earth and living
in a world limited by time and space, the puer flies above it all, flitting
from one whim to another, exiting when complexities and limitations arise,
oblivious to the resulting harm.
It is all well and good to have grand ideas, but it is quite another
matter to bring those grand ideas to life in the world of time and space.
There is a popular saying –
Òthe devil is in the details.Ó
Jungians might translate this as, Òthe shadow is in the details.Ó We can imagine perfect projects and
perfect projects on the abstract level.
ItÕs not until we actually try to make them happen that we discover the
complexities and unexpected consequences of what we are proposing. Since individuation inevitably involves
confrontation with the shadow, we might go so far as to say, Òindividuation is
in the details.Ó
Desire coagulates
The Judeo Christian
tradition tends to demonize fleshly desire. We are advised to overcome desire through strength of will
and self-discipline. But the body
is coagulated psyche – the solidified part of our identity. To completely ignore bodily desire is
to thwart embodiment which means resisting coagulatio.
No doubt, we live among
people who compulsively seek to fill every desire. For them, coagulatio is not the issue – we will
discuss the issues of compulsivity in future lectures. But for many, many others, discomfort
with desire is the core issue.
Edinger explains,
Psychotherapeutic
experience verifies the idea that desire promotes coagulatio. For those who are
already driven by desirousness, coagulatio is not the operation needed.
However, many patients have an inadequate libido investment, a weakness of
desire sometimes bordering on anhedonia. Such people don't know what they want
and are afraid of their own desires. They are like unborn souls in heaven
shrinking from the fall into concrete reality. These people need to cultivate
their desires, to seek them, nourish them, and act on them. Only thus will
psychic energy be mobilized that will promote life experience and ego
development. In psychotherapy, the emergence of transference desires will often
indicate the beginning of a coagulatio process and therefore should be treated
with care. (p. 91)
What is the object of
desire? Of course, that varies from
one person to another. For many,
it is sexual desire – to experience the ultimate pleasure of sexual
ecstasy with an ideal partner. For
others, it might be food. The alchemical literature is full of food
analogies. Honey, in particular,
is described as the supreme example of sweetness and therefore an agent of
coagulatio. Many alchemical
recipes call for honey as a key ingredient. What might it mean to fully and completely satisfied? To experience the full sweetness that
is possible for human embodiment?
Of course, we all know that being fully and supremely satisfied by any
transient human experience is impossible.
But, does that mean we should shun desire, to label it as evil and
attempt to extinguish it? Alchemy
and Jungian work say Òno.Ó Behind
the desire is a healthy human longing for coagulatio, for full engagement in
human experience, with all its trials, victories, and disappointments. Moderation is necessary, but not full
extinguishment of the underlying desire.
To quote from the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali: ÒThe purpose of the world is to provide us with experience
and thus to lead us to liberationÓ
(2.18)
Relationship coagulates
In part, coagulatio means
the process of getting real, of recognizing your personal strengths and weaknesses,
of doing the often tough work of ascertaining what is realistic rather than
just pining away for whatÕs theoretically possible. What better way of doing this than through our
relationships? And, of course,
thatÕs why so many of us avoid relationships. They are messy and they often end in disillusionment. But
think of that word—disillusionment.
The dispelling of an illusion.
That is getting real.
In the biggest sense, archetypes exist only as abstract
possibilities until they come into the human realm through relationships. This is particularly true of the
parental archetypes. How do we know the archetypal Mother? Because we begin with a real-life
relationship with a flesh and blood person who mothers us. How do we know the
archetypal Father? Because we
begin with a real-life relationship with a flesh and blood person who fathers
us. And we spend much of our life, particular the first half, discovering that
we were only partially mothered and partially fathered. No flesh and blood person can ever
fully embody an archetype. So we
spend much of the rest of our lives unearthing the rest of the story, the part
our flesh and blood parents didnÕt know and couldnÕt tell us. We coagulate the archetypes through
further relationships.
A critical aspect of
psychotherapy – perhaps THE critical aspect – is the formation of
relationship between the analyst and the analysand, the therapist and the
client. Through that primary
relationship, the client can come into relationship with complexes, archetypes,
and even the transcendent Self.
The therapeutic relationship becomes the model for all the relationships
that follow, both internal and external.
Analogy coagulates
Outer world experiences –
taking action, giving expression to desire, engaging in relationship –
are critical for coagulatio. But
there are also some inner experiences that serve the process of
coagulatio. Chief among them is
the experience of analogy – to compare two things that are similar, and
through this comparison better understand or explain something previously not
understood or explained. That is
why myths and folktales are powerful devices for coagulatio. If I read this simplified story, perhaps
I will see aspects of my own life story, maybe even some aspects I have been
unable or unwilling to recognize.
If my life unfolds like the folktale, what is the underlying
meaning? The underlying meaning
coagulates – it becomes real for me – through the analogy of the
myth.
Jung teaches that the
unconscious provides us with a constant stream of analogies, if only we will
pay attention. We dream, and the
dreams supply us with analogies.
But the ego must engage in the coagulatio process. We must discipline ourselves to
remember our dreams and exert the effort to analyze what the dream symbols are
showing us. Relationships with a
dream group or therapists are often critical, as well, to coagulate the
analogies of our dreams so that we can learn and grow from them. Active imagination – JungÕs
meditative methods to dream while still awake – also supply powerful, and
potentially coagulating, analogies.
ItÕs important to
distinguish between abstractions and analogies. Edinger explains:
Concepts
and abstractions don't coagulate. They make air, not earth. They are agents of sublimatio.
The images of dreams and active imagination do coagulate. They connect the
outer world with the inner work by means of proportional or analogous images
and thus coagulate soul-stuff. Moods and affects toss us about wildly until
they coagulate into something visible and tangible; then we can relate to them
objectively. Jung says in his memoirs: "To the extent that I managed to
translate the emotions into images-that is to say, to find the images which
were concealed in the emotions-I was inwardly calmed and reassured." (p. 100)
Coagulation may be
experienced as bondage or imprisonment
One of the reasons that
people often struggle with the experience of coagulatio is that it feels like
bondage or imprisonment. There is
a long religious and philosophical tradition along these lines. Plato wrote of the soul as being Òenshrined
in the living tomb which we carry about, now that we are imprisoned in the
body, like an oyster in his shell.Ó The Gnostics, the spiritual forefathers of
the alchemists, also imagined spirit imprisoned in matter, awaiting liberation.
But without this
imprisonment, there could be no transformation. This is the special status that
Jung places on embodiment, on limitation in time and space. ThatÕs what makes human life so
precious in the grand design.
There is a famous passage from one of JungÕs letters:
God wants to be born in the flame of
consciousness,
leaping ever higher.
What if we have no roots in the earth?
If we are not a house of stone where the fire of God
can dwell,
but a wretched
straw hut that flares up and vanishes?
Could God then be born?
One must be able to suffer God.
That is the supreme task for the seeker of ideas.
He must be the advocate of the earth.
God will take care of himself.
My principle is: deus et homo.
God needs man in order to become conscious,
just as he needs limitation in time and space.
Let us therefore be for him limitation in time and
space,
an earthly tabernacle.
The Incarnation is the
ultimate Christian symbol for coagulatio
As we are about to enter the
Easter season, itÕs good to remember that, for Christians, the incarnation is
the ultimate symbol for coagulatio.
God became man and dwelt among us – or, in other words, the Great
Spirit coagulated into human form to discover, in person, what it means to be
limited in time and space and the suffering that ensues from that
limitation. Edinger points out
some aspects of the incarnation story that have alchemical significance:
|
Born of a virgin |
Incarnated in purified
earth. Alchemists refer to the
Virgin Mary as Òwhite foliated earthÓ meaning a purified attitude toward
materiality. ÒThe black earth of
ego desirousness becomes the white foliated earth that incarnates the Self.Ó |
|
The crucifixion |
Carrying the cross
symbolizes the realization of the burden of carrying oneÕs being. Being nailed to a cross symbolizes
being nailed to matter, with the four arms symbolizing the four elements from
which all visible matter arises.
The uncoagulated spirit is free, it can entertain any image without
consequences. But to be a concretely realized ego means one is nailed to the
cross of the created world. |
|
The Last Supper and the
food symbolism in the Mass |
To eat something means to
incorporate it – literally, to turn it into body. Jung called it Òthe rite of the individuation
process.Ó To partake of the
Eucharistic meal signifies the egoÕs incorporation of a relation to the Self. |
|
Redemption of humankind |
Incarnation occurs for
purposes of rescue. Egohood serves a redemptive function for a lost
value. What needs to be redeemed
is an aspect of the deity itself.
The godhead is internally conflicted – into dark and light
halves – and only the limited ego can supply the consciousness
necessary to heal this split in the godhead. |
I would like to end with a
poem by 16th century mystical and alchemical poet, Henry Vaughn:
Lord! When thou didst they
selfe undresse
Laying by thy robes of
glory,
To make us more, thou
wouldst be lesse,
And becam'st wofull story.
To put on Clouds instead of
light,
And cloath the morning-starre
with dust
Was a translation of such
height
As, but in thee, 'Was ne'r
exprest;
Brave wormes, and Earth!
that thus could have
A God Enclosed within vour
Cell.
Your maker pent up in a
grave,
Life lockt in death, heaven
in a shell;
Ah, my deare Lord! what
couldst thou spye
In this impure, rebellious
clay,
That made thee thus resolve
to dye
For those that kill thee
every day?
O what strange wonders could
thee move
To slight thy precious
bloud, and breath!
Sure it was Love, my Lord;
for Love Is only stronger
far than death.
Alchemy
of Transformation: Solutio, Trial
by Water
The Odes of Solomon -- ODE
30
Drink deeply from the living fountain of the Lord. It
is yours.
Come, all who are
thirsty, and drink, and rest by the fountain of the Lord.
How beautiful and pure.
It rests the soul.
That water is sweeter than honey.
The combs of bees are nothing beside it.
It flows from the lips of the Lord.
Its name is from the Lord's heart.
It is invisible but has no borders
and was unknown until it was set in our midst.
They who drink are blessed and they rest.
Why study alchemy? What could we learn, in our modern age,
from ancients who spent all their time in primitive laboratories, mixing
substance, vainly trying to turn lead into gold? Even if you accept that alchemists came up with interesting
parallels to and analogies for psychological and spiritual transformation –
the conclusion come to by Carl Jung – why bother digging into arcane
alchemical language and symbolism?
What matters most is immediate experience, right? What I am experiencing in this moment,
for good or for ill.
If you take that position,
you are in good company. Most of
modern psychology would agree with you, with its emphasis on relieving symptoms
and returning people to functional normalcy. The Jungian approach is certainly
not for everyone. The Jungian
approach says that human life – individual and collective – is a
vast alchemical experiment. Human
beings are born into certain circumstances, with certain challenges and gifts,
and go about living their lives and destinies, either consciously or
unconsciously. If we live
consciously, everything we experience – good or bad, comforting or
frightening – is lived and experienced as an unfolding of the experiment
of our lives. We turn the leaden parts of our lives into the gold of
consciousness. What is
leaden? Whatever has become
entrenched and one-sided and has ceased to be of use, particularly our
attitudes and perceptions, our sense of who we are and what is possible for
us. If we are to grow – if
the experiment is to go on – transformation must occur, and
transformation may be distressing.
The alchemists made it their business to describe, in minute detail, the
processes of transformation, using vivid imagery and symbolic language. The emphasis is not on relieving
symptoms and returning to functional normalcy. The emphasis is on participation in the ultimate experiment.
Contrast this with the
medical model that so predominates in modern psychology. If you are experiencing distressing
psychological symptoms, the focus is on making these symptoms go away,
returning you to functional normalcy.
You may or may not see some deeper pattern of meaning. If you are in distress, particularly
severe distress, itÕs a symptom of an illness, and the duty of the psychologist
is to cure mental illness. That
approach is certainly more accessible and straightforward, but it is also very
limited and limiting.
So, last week we discussed
one of the core alchemical processes, the process called Òcoagulatio.Ó This process typically manifests in the
life of someone who is relatively diffused and abstract, who may know a lot of
things intellectually, but has yet to transform that knowledge into action, to
subject theory to the tests of daily reality. Those abstractions and theories need to be solidified,
turned to earth, forced to be enacted in the world of time and space. In Jungian terms, they must be integrated
by an ego, must become part of a personÕs identity and seen for their
possibilities in a more practical sense.
What insight does alchemy provide for such a coagulating process? Last week, we discussed how action is a
critical element. Desire is also
important – embracing desire, learning from it, finding appropriate ways
to live it out. Our relationships
are very important, because it is through relationships that we live out and
discover deeper insights.
Analogies can be similarly important, particularly those that come
through dreams and active imagination.
Finally, coagulatio is often experienced as bondage or
imprisonment. Such feelings are
not pathological, but are to be expected.
Some egos just donÕt like to be brought down to earth, and they feel
trapped when it happens. But, in
their efforts to avoid coagulatio, egotistical people sacrifice the thing of
highest possible value – a meaningfully transformed life, which equate to
the alchemical PhilosopherÕs Stone.
With that brief summary, we
now move to another alchemical process, the trial by water, called solutio.
These first two alchemical processes – coagulatio and solutio –
are often cited as complementary in alchemical literature. Some alchemists went so far to say that
these two are the core of the entire alchemical opus. Solve et coagula – dissolve and coagulate. That is what we do over and over and
over in the vast alchemical experiment that is human life.
The process of solutio
typically manifests when attitudes and perceptions have become too fixed and
rigid. The ego is in stasis –
a person feels very comfortable and sure of her or his rightness. So, whatÕs wrong with that? Modern psychology would typically
describe that as the ultimate aim, to feel confident and contented. Well, thereÕs two problems with
that. First, it cannot last. To live is to transform, whether you
like it or not. Second, excessive
certainty and contentment is deadly if you believe, like Jung, that human
destiny is to turn lead into gold, to participate fully in the grand
experiment, for oneself and for all of humanity.
There is a beautiful scene
from a motion picture that comes to mind for me when I think of solutio. It is in the film Immortal Beloved, about the life of Beethoven, and it occurs early in
the film, when the young composer is feeling stifled by his provincial life, unsatisfied
with home life, surrounded by people who have no imagination. One warm summer evening, he slips out
of his home and walks to a placid lake.
It is a moonless night, perfectly calm, and the brilliant stars are
perfectly mirrored in the waters. Above
and below are one, stars above and stars below. He strips naked and slips into the warm waters. As he floats effortlessly, he lets
loose of his ego boundaries. He is
merged with the star field, his identity is the vast universe. That is solutio, in its most positive
and pleasant sense.
Unfortunately, like all
alchemical processes, solutio also brings unpleasant experiences. A rigidly structured ego cannot give up
control. ItÕs about giving up
autonomy, dissolving into oblivion, returning to the womb. There is justifiable fear associated
with this process – you simply cannot crawl back into the womb and stay
there permanently. It feels like
death, abandoning hard-won identity, being swallowed up. But it is also necessary at certain
stages in the experiment.
In alchemical text and
imagery, solutio often involves a king being submerged in water. He can be flailing about,
drowning. Or, he can be so thirsty
that he drinks too much and drowns internally. Jung comments: ÒThe
king personifies a hypertrophy of the ego which calls for compensation É his
thirst is due to his boundless concupiscence and egotism. But when he drinks he is overwhelmed by
the water – that is, by the unconscious.Ó (CW 14, para. 365)
So, in a Jungian, sense, the king symbolizes the dominant or ruling
principle according to which the ego is structured. Sometimes, a swollen, inflated ego is dissolved by its own
excesses. It gets too much of what
it wants, is dissolved, and is set for rejuvenation.
What is this water that
dissolves the ego? In the most
basic sense, the water represents something that is much bigger and more
expansive than the ego. The ego
encounters this bigger thing, and it relinquishes its smaller boundaries,
though often with a struggle. For
example, a student may surrender to the larger consciousness of his teacher or
guru. A person may encounter a new
belief system, and see that this new belief system better explains basic life
questions than the one it is replacing.
That was my own experience with the writings of Jung. At first, I struggled with them –
they seemed so difficult to grasp, and I wondered if it was worth it. CouldnÕt I just be a simple Christian
or a Freudian? But I kept being
drawn back to Jung because his ideas were expansive enough to assist me in the
big explorations I was drawn to.
In the middle of these studies, I had a powerful solutio dream, which
echoes the symbolism of the dream from the Beethoven movie:
IÕm walking along the
shore of a lake, where I see children playing on the rocks. A voice says, ÒThose are JungÕs
grandchildren, theyÕve come to his funeral.Ó I see a house with one side open to the lake. A group of Vikings are carrying the
body of Jung to a waiting boat, which will be launched into the lake, a Viking funeral. They walked past me silently and I
watch them load the body onto the boat and push it out. Suddenly, I am lying on the boat,
staring up at the sky. I feel the
waters begin to close around me. I
feel terror, and then I realize that I can breath the waters of the lake. They close over my face and I feel
oddly calm.
That dream, along with
others, confirmed in me that Jungian studies were a core part of my
destiny. But, there was a danger
that I could be dissolved completely into Jung, lose my own identity, and sink
into the unconscious. It was, at the same time, an inviting dream and a
cautionary dream.
This dream also carried a
feeling tone that is typical of solutio.
Solutio involves dissolving into
the water of feeling, particularly the type of feeling that makes you
forget who you have been. For
example, feelings of erotic attraction or love can break open the rigid ego,
allowing other influences to penetrate and transform. These waters can also be
the orgiastic waters of Dionysus.
A lonely and alienated ego can long to sink into the waters of sexual
pleasure, particularly group or collective sexuality. There is a scene from the 1970s cult classic film Rocky
Horror Picture Show that captures
this feeling perfectly. The lead
character is a sexually provocative, charismatic transgender man who lures the
other characters, male and female, into explorations of their sexual
longings. In a final scene, all
are floating in a clear pool, caressing one another. The main character sings:
Give yourself over to
absolute pleasure
Swim the warm waters of sins
of the flesh
Erotic nightmares beyond any
measure
And sensual daydreams to
treasure forever
Can't you just see it?
Don't dream it, be it
Closely related to this are
Dionysian longings for oblivion through alcohol and other drugs, particularly
those substances that dissolve oneÕs sense of identity. Edward Edinger comments:
In
general, the Dionysian is daimonic and ecstatic, promoting intensity of
experience rather than clear, structured meaning. It is a dissolver of limits
and boundaries, bringing life without measure. In its extreme form it is wild,
irrational, mad, ecstatic, boundless. It is the enemy of all conventional laws,
rules, and established forms. It is in the service, no1 of safety, but of life
and rejuvenation. The weak and immature may bt destroyed by its onslaughts; the
healthy will be fertilized and enlivens the land by the flooding of the Nile
(see figure 3-11).
Many
clinical syndromes are due to a concretistic identification with the Dionysian
principle. Alcoholism and drug addiction are obvious Don Juanism can also be
considered an identification with Dionysus, in which the individual surrounds
himself with an entourage of women in various stages of love or frenzy
(Maenads). This situation threatens to bring about his own psychological
dismemberment by conflicts, obligations, and entanglements. The Dionysian takes
on a compulsive quality when it exists in a dissociated personality. Put
another way, the Dionysian destroys the Pentheus-like ego that is not related
to wholeness. In favorable circumstances it promotes harmony and dissolves
differences. (Anatomy of the Psyche, pp. 64-65)
Another symbolic enactment
of solutio – on the surface, a complete contrast – is the act of baptism. Early baptisms were symbolic
drownings. A person was fully
immersed and held under water until anxiety became almost unbearable. Again quoting Edinger, baptism Òsignifies
a cleansing, rejuvenating immersion in an energy and viewpoint transcending the
ego, a veritable death and rebirth . . . it signified a total converstion, a
death of the old life and rebirth of a new person into the community of
religious believers. The ritual
was considered quite literalluy to bring about the creation of a new personality
É In Christian baptism the
individual is united with Christ, that is, the ego is linked with the Self.Ó (p. 58)
So, solution can mean
dissolving all separateness and individual distinctness in the face of
something larger than oneself, like Christ, the Self, the community of
believers. That can be quite
liberating to a rigidly separated ego, but it can descend further into
dissociation, to loss of identity.
Solutio is not without its perils.
ItÕs no accident that
English applies the word ÒsolveÓ when it comes to a problem. Solutio is also the process of breaking
down problems, coming to deeper insights or resolutions. In particular, solutio often entails solving
a problem by bringing it to the realm of feeling. Libido, psychic energy, has gotten stuck, and no amount of
intellectualization or abstraction will unstick it. Openness to feeling is
necessary, and for some people, opening to feeling requires a fundamental
softening of rigid ego attitudes and habits.
Alchemists were particularly
fascinated by metals, seeing them as the most sublime and noble of all
substances. In particular, they
admired the quality of metals to readily melt, to liquefy when heated, then to
re-solidify almost instantly. This is also the attribute of a personality open
to the Jungian process of individuation.
When needed, the rigid forms are liquefied, with minimal struggle,
ridding themselves of contaminants in the process. But they readily resolidify, in new shapes, more purified,
with more essential integrity.
Sometimes, even the
PhilosopherÕs Stone, the endpoint of the work, and even the entirety of the
opus is described in watery terms.
For instance, another name for the PhilosopherÕs Stone is Òelixir vitae,Ó
the living elixir. In Psychology
and Alchemy, Jung comments:
[The
philosophers] say that the whole work and the substance of the whole work are
nothing but the water; and that the treatment of the same also takes place in
nothing but the water.... And by whatever names the philosophers have called their
stone they always mean and refer to this one substance, i.e., to the water from
which everything [originates] and in which everything [is contained], which
rules everything, in which errors are made and in which the error is itself
corrected. I call it "philosophical" water, not ordinary water but
aqua mercurialis. (para 336)
I will end with a quote from
Chapter 8 of the Tao Te Ching, as translated by Ralph Alan Dale:
The highest good is like water
nourishing life effortlessly
flowing without prejudice
to the lowliest places.
It springs from all who
nourish their community
with a benevolent heart as deep as an abyss
who are incapable of lies and injustices
who are rooted in the earth
and whose natural rhythms of action
play midwife to the highest good
of each pregnant moment.
Alchemy
of Transformation: Calcinatio,
Trial by Fire
ÒFire HazardÓ by Dorsha Hayes
Filled with a clutter of
unsorted stuff
a spark can set a man
ablaze. What's there
heaped high among stored
rubbish at a puff
will burst in flame.
No man can be aware
of how inflammable he is,
how prone
what can rage beyond
control, unless
the piled up litter of his
life is known
to him, and he is able to
assess
what hazard he is in, what
could ignite.
A man, disordered and
undisciplined,
lives in the peril of a
panic flight
before the onrush of a
flaming wind.
Does
it now seem I seek to be profound?
I
stand on smoking ash and blackened ground!
Up until now, we have talked
about two very familiar processes of transformation as identified by the
ancient alchemists, who described these processes using vivid symbology and
colorful medieval language. Jung
recognized that the alchemists appreciated these processes in much the same way
that he appreciated these processes as they unfolded in psychotherapy and in
the broader community. Sometimes, there are attitudes or perceptions that weÕve
never really made part of our lives.
They need to be brought down to earth – coagulatio. Other times, there are attitudes or
perceptions that have become too fixed and solid, needing to be softened up, to
be made more fluid – solutio.
This week, we move to
another alchemical process in which contaminants are burned off. The alchemists called it Òcalcinatio.Ó
What does fire symbolize?
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Libido
á
Desirousness,
especially frustrated desire
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Instinctual
energies
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Hunger
We all encounter fire in our
lives. We have to learn how to deal with our desires, to manage our instincts,
to satisfy our hunger at least partially. Sometimes, people encounter such
energies and become compulsive and consumed. Or, they alternate between
repressing their desires and occasionally giving in to them, with accompanying
shame and even self-loathing. But that does not mean that we should avoid or
demonize the fire. Instead, we
should examine those who survive, even grow from, the fire.
Edinger tells us that there
are healthy ego attitudes during calcinatio:
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First,
the ego is open to feeling but does not identify with it.
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Second,
the ego feels deeply related to a transcendent source, the Self.
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Third,
the ego is willing to experience the sometimes fiery discomfort of not acting
on desire, not out of a sense of duty or self hatred, but motivated by
self-discovery.
What are some examples of a
trial by fire?
Sexuality
Some choose to act on every
sexual impulse, even to the point of compulsivity. Nothing is wrong with sexual feelings themselves; indeed, as
we talked about several weeks ago, desire and relationship are essential
components of another alchemical process, coagulatio. However, there is a
different type of insight and power that come from voluntarily holding back
from literal action on sexual feelings and impulses. The alchemical process of calcinatio can come into full
expression.
ItÕs unfortunate that the
choice to refrain from sexual expression is so associated in our culture with
guilt and shame. ItÕs almost
impossible to imagine voluntary sexual restraint or abstinence free from guilt
and shame. But that is what we must try to imagine if we are to understand
calcinatio.
The choice of when to give
expression to sexual feelings and when to refrain from expression is the
critical aspect of calcinatio, and the motivation for the choice is
particularly significant. Consider
the following quote from Edward Edinger:
The
necessary frustration of desirousness or concupiscence is the chief feature of
the calcinatio stage. First the substance must be located; that is , the
unconscious, unacknowledged desire, demand, expectation must be recognized and affirmed. The
instinctual urge that says ÒI want,Ó and ÒI am entitled to thisÓ must be fully
accepted by the ego. (Anatomy of
the Psyche, p. 42)
For some people, the number
of sexual partners is the critical question. Why do some of us choose monogamy,
even when we crave other partners?
Some are monogamous out of a sense of guilt or duty, which often leads
to resentment and acting out. But
others are committed to the integrity of a monogamous relationship because of
the power of such an intimate container.
What can be gained by focusing sexual expression on only one
partner? Almost certainly,
whatever has not been resolved in the relationship, and in the partners, will
be burned in the fires that arise from monogamous commitment. For instance, feelings of jealousy are
almost inevitable – what if I am being monogamous, but my partner is
not? In the fires of monogamy, the
deeper aspects of jealousy may come into consciousness. Jealousy is often rooted in deeper
feelings of unworthiness, wanting to have absolute control, and in never being
made to look na•ve and foolish.
Those are the unfinished, static thoughts that must be burned away in
calcinatio.
Similarly, have feelings of
deep infatuation, and not acting on it, can ignite a fire that builds
consciousness and burns away complex-laden contents. Infatuation is almost always about projection. We project our unlived life onto an
idealized sexual partner. If we
take action on the infatuation, we typically discover that our perfect partner
is just another human, and that discovery is often painful and disappointing.
If we refrain from taking action on the infatuation, it may leads to a
different, and deeper, withdrawal of projection. The feelings heat up, sometimes to levels we can hardly
bear. In the midst of this heat,
we learn more about the parts of ourselves that we are projecting, which may
allow us to own and integrate these parts. We encounter other people as unique individuals, not just
screens that accept our projections.
Addiction
We live in an addictive
culture. Much of our economy is
built on a hunger for substances that can bring pleasure and satisfaction. If a little bit is good, a lot will be
great. Right? Unfortunately, we also see the effects
of addiction all around us. Our
crumbling economy is the crash that follows overuse.
Usually, when we think of
addiction, we think about dependence on alcohol and other drugs. IÕm sure we
can all bring to mind friends and family members who have plunged into chemical
addiction, and some who lost their lives.
To face an addiction means stepping into the fire of calcinatio, and not
everyone is up to the task.
Dr. Jung was instrumental in
the birth of the so-called 12 step
movement. In 1961, Dr. Jung wrote
the founder of the Alcoholics Anonymous movement. Here are some excerpts from JungÕs letter:
Craving
for alcohol is the equivalent on a low level of the spiritual thirst of our
being for wholeness, expressed in medieval language, the union with God.
How
could one formulate such an insight in a language that is not misunderstood in
our days?
The
only right and legitimate way to such an experience is, that it happens to you
in reality and it can only happen to you when you walk on a path, which leads
you to higher understanding. You might be led to that goal by an act of grace
or through a personal and honest contact with friends, or through a higher
education of the mind beyond the confines of mere rationalities.
I
am strongly convinced that the evil principle prevailing in this world leads
the unrecognized spiritual need into perdition, if it is not counteracted
either by a real religious insight or by the protective wall of human
community. An ordinary man cannot resist the power of evil, which is called
very aptly the Devil. But the use of such words around so many mistakes that
one can only keep aloof from them as much as possible.
You
see, alcohol in Latin is ÒspiritualÓ and you se the same for the highest
religious experience as well as for the most depraving poison. The helpful
formula therefore is: spiritus contra spiritum.
There are elements of
calcinatio insight in JungÕs comments. We have a deeper craving for wholeness,
but this craving becomes shunted into a lower process. This lower process either kills
us or leads us to more profound understanding.
Not surprisingly, the
12-step movement also mirrors some calcinatio insights. Some of the language is
laden with religious terminology, but the messages are calcinatio,
nonetheless. Consider, for
instance, the concept that one must admit that one is powerless over the
addictive substance, that oneÕs life has become unmanageable, and that a
reliance on a higher power is necessary for restoration of sanity. Those are the essence of the first
three of the twelve steps. In a
Jungian alchemical sense, these words assert that the ego cannot survive the
fire of addiction unless it is in relationship with a deeper source. The twelve steps also assert that one
must recognize oneÕs Òdefects of characterÓ and Òshortcomings.Ó In alchemical language, these are the
contaminants that must be burned off in the fires of calcinatio, the unhealed
complexes that led us into the addiction and continue to fuel the addiction.
Ultimately, the twelve steps say that the addict may be led to Òimprovement in
conscious contact with God as we understand himÓ and that life may be brought
more into alignment with divine will, along with the power to carry that
out. That is also the end point of
the calcinatio process.
Fiery ordeals
Sexuality and addiction are
very contemporary issues with which our culture struggles. Other examples of calcinatio come from
the world of theology, which have deep roots in our cultural history, and which
still resonate today. In
particular, calcinatio is mirrored in the concepts of purgatory, hell, and
Biblical descriptions of a fiery apocalypse.
Referring back to JungÕs
letter to Bill W., he makes a direct reference along these lines when he says, Òthe
evil principle prevailing in this world leads the unrecognized spiritual need
into perdition.Ó
Superficially understood,
purgatory and hell are merely punishments for those who disobey God. On a more sophisticated level, these
are fiery ordeals that purify, that burn away those aspects of personality that
lead one away from our transcendent core.
Origen, the 3rd century Christian theologian and scholar,
notes that the source of these purging fires lie within each of us:
Let
us now see what is the meaning of threatened "eternal fire." Now we
find in the prophet Isaiah that the fire by which each man is punished is
described as belonging to himself. For it says, "Walk in the light of your
fire and in the flame which you have kindled for yourselves" (Isaiah 50:
II). These words seem to indicate that every sinner kindles for himself the
flame of his own fire, and is not plunged into a fire which has been previously
kindled by someone else or which existed before him. Of this fire the food and
material are our sins, which are called by the apostle Paul wood and hay and
stubble... in the very essence of the soul certain torments are produced from
the harmful desires themselves that lead us to sin.
Consider
the effect of those faults of passion which often occur in men, as when the
soul is burnt up with the flames of love, or tormented by the fires of jealousy
or envy, or tossed about with furious anger, or consumed with intense sadness;
remembering how some men, finding the excess of these ills too heavy to bear,
have deemed it more tolerable to submit to death than endure such tortures. (Quoted in Edinger, p. 29)
Fire that dries out
whatever is water-logged
In its most basic sense,
calcinatio is a drying-out process, which shows its relationship with
solution. Something that has been
water-logged needs to be subjected to fire. What does this mean psychologically? In Jungian terms, it means the waters
of the unconscious, and particularly the complexes that so often drown us in
feeling. Again, quoting Edinger
(p. 42):
Calcinatio is also
associated with the creative fire of the artist. Therefore, I would like to finish with a sonnet by the
artist Michelangelo:
Only through fire can
the smith pull and stretch Metal into the shape of his design.
Only through fire can
the artist reach
Pure gold which only
furnaces refine.
Nor can the phoenix
rare itself remake
Unless it first be
burnt. For my part, 1
Hope to ascend
triumphantly on high
Where death fulfills,
where time itself must break.
The fire of which 1 speak
has brought salvation, 1 find in
it new powers and
restoration
Although 1 seemed
already with the dead.
Since by fire nature
reaches up to heaven
1 may, through it, be
reconciled, forgiven,
For it must surely
bear me overhead.
(Quoted
in Edinger, p. 37)
Alchemy
of Transformation: Sublimatio,
Trial by Air
A dream retold by J. B. Priestley, 20th
century English novelist, playwright and broadcaster:
I dreamt that I was standing at the top of a very
high tower, alone. looking down upon myriads of birds all flying in one
direction; every kind of bird was there, all the birds in the world. It was a
noble sight, this vast aerial river of birds. But now in some mysterious
fashion the gear was changed, and time speeded up. so that I saw generations of
birds, watched them break their shells, flutter into life, mate, weaken,
falter, and die. Wings grew only to crumble; bodies were sleek and then, in a
flash, bled and shriveled; and death struck everywhere at every second. What
was the use of all this blind struggle towards life, this eager trying of
wings, this hurried mating, this flight and surge, all this gigantic
meaningless biological effort? As I stared down, seeming to see every
creature's ignoble little history almost at a glance. I felt sick at heart. It
would be better if not one of them, if not one of us all, had been born, if the
struggle ceased forever. I stood on my tower, still alone, desperately unhappy.
But now the gear was changed again, and time went faster still, and it was rushing
by at such a rate, that the birds could not show any movement, but were like an
enormous plain sown with feathers. But along this plain, flickering through the
bodies themselves, there now passed a sort ol white flame, trembling, dancing,
then hurrying on; and as soon as I saw it I knew that this white flame was life
itself, the very quintessence of being; and then it came to me in a rocketburst
of ecstasy, that nothing mattered, nothing could ever matter, because nothing
else was real, but this quivering and hurrying lambency of being. Birds, men or
creatures not yet shaped and colored, all were of no account except so far as
this flame of life traveled through them. It left nothing to mourn over behind it; what I had
thought was tragedy was mere emptiness or a shadow show; for now all real
feeling was caught and purified and danced on ecstatically with the white flame
of life (quoted in Edinger, Anatomy of the Psyche, pp
129 – 130)
This week is the final in
the four sessions devoted to four of the basic alchemical processes. As we have discussed, to fully
appreciate alchemy, you must see yourself involved in, and part of, a vast
alchemical experiment. On the individual level, the unfinished parts of yourself
– your unhealed traumas, your unresolved conflicts, your limiting self
perceptions – are the basic stuff that is being experimented on. On the collective level, it is the
unspoken trauma and shadow of our culture and our community. How do you take this muck, this dross,
this lead, and transform it into something of ultimate value – what the
alchemists called gold, or the philosophers stone? There are processes involved, and we have been talking about
these processes. So far we have
talked about processes involved with fire, water, and earth – calcinatio,
solution, and coagulatio. This
week, we talk about the process involved with air, the process of sublimatio.
Basically, sublimatio means
taking something that is solid or liquid and transforming it into a gas. So, for instance, when water is
distilled, it is evaporated, usually by heating and boiling. The water vapor rises, leaving the
minerals and sediments behind. The
water that condenses is thus purified.
That is the physical process that the alchemists observed in the
laboratory. What might this same process symbolize, on the psychological and
spiritual levels?
The key experience
associated with sublimatio is viewing reality from above, particularly from a
great height. It is as if you
could suddenly be freed from gravity, from confinement to the mundane, and see
everything and everyone from a higher, more objective, perspective.
Have you been to the web
site ÒGoogle EarthÓ? It is
basically a satellite picture of the entire earth. You start from many miles above, and you can zoom closer and
closer on objects of your choice, like the Egyptian pyramids, the Taj Mahal,
the Great Wall of China, the Kremlin, or even your own house. It gives you a sense of absolute
freedom and omniscience. You can
view anywhere at a whim, then rise back up above it all. That is an experience of
sublimatio. In contrast, if you
had to walk every destination, and feel every footstep in between, that would
be coagulatio.
Psychologically, sublimatio
is associated with dissociation.
This word has many negative connotations, and can be considered
pathological when it goes out of control.
Dissociation means the sense that you can disentangle from your identity
and personal entanglements and view it all objectively, like it is happening to
someone else. This is not always
pathological, however. At times,
it is very healthy. Edward Edinger
argues that it is the core of self-reflection and consciousness. You are able to set aside your
unconscious identification with complexes and aspects of your life that are overwhelming
and see that you have an underlying identity that is far more expansive. You are, if you are open to it, both
engaged and above it all.
In alchemy, sublimatio was
also associated with the idea that spirit could be freed from matter. In
alchemical imagery, this was often depicted as a bird escaping from a person
who was undergoing an ordeal. For
instance, in the alchemical text Splendor Solis, a man is shown in a tub, being boiled in the fires
of calcinatio. A white dove is
shown emerging from his head, ascending to the heavens. The spirit that has
been trapped in the body is able to escape the ordeal by rising above it.
Again, letÕs discuss what
this might mean psychologically.
In my own life, I have found myself in the middle of a conflict or of a
fear that begins to feel unbearable.
Will I survive the pain? Then, something shifts. It is as if I suddenly
rose out of the immediate situation and could see it for what it is. Perhaps I see that it is just a
recurrence of an old complex that has yet to heal. Or I see that it is part of a much larger process and
therefore completely survivable and necessary.
The very act of making a
diagnosis is an act of sublimatio. Even though it may feel limiting to be
labeled, it is also paradoxically liberating. To be in the midst of agony, with
no word for its source, is often much worse. This is true of physical as well
as psychological challenges. Once you name the experience – it is a
mother complex, it is depression, it is mania – you can hold it at a bit
of a distance, and you can begin to move out from beneath it and even find
meaning in it. Edinger explains
that part of the experience of sublimatio is Òextraction of meaning from heavy
moods, from concrete events, or from the factuality of nature.Ó
As this is true of
individual experience, it is also true at the collective and historical
level. Edinger adds, ÒThe whole
history of cultural evolution can
be seen as a great sublimatio process in which human beings learn how to see
themselves and their world objectively.Ó
So, when the world is in the middle of war, it seems as if the war will
go on forever, and when it ends, people are prone to say, Òthat is the war to
end all wars.Ó It takes a vast
collective sublimatio for people to rise above it all, see the deeper roots of
human history, and recognize the collective work that remains undone.
To be open to sublimatio
means living as both a fully engaged person and also a reflective spectator of
oneÕs own life. The philosopher
Schopenhauer describes this in his book, The World as Will and
Determination:
[It
is] indeed wonderful to see, how man, besides his life in the concrete, always
lives a second life in the abstract. In the former he is abandoned to all the
storms of reality and to the influence of the present; he must struggle,
suffer, and die like the animal. But his life in the abstract, as it stands
before his rational consciousness, is the calm reflection of his life in the
concrete, and of the world in which he lives .... Here in the sphere of calm
deliberation, what previously possessed him completely and moved him intensely
appears to him cold, colorless, and, for the moment, foreign and strange; he is
a mere spectator and observer. In respect of this withdrawal into reflection,
he is like an actor who has played his part in one scene, and takes his place
in the audience until he must appear again. In the audience he quietly looks on
at whatever may happen, even though it be the preparation for his own death [in
the play]; but then he goes on the stage, and acts and suffers as he must. (p.
152)
That is sublimatio at its
most positive. But, like any other
alchemical process, it can go on for too long and become problematically
one-sided, creating a need for compensation by a different process. We have already mentioned the problems
of dissociation. Unhealthy
dissociation is a splintering of the personality, so-called multiple
personality disorder. From a
Jungian point of view, sublimatio means rising above this mundane world up to
the realm of the archetypes. Such
an experience can be exhilarating, life changing, but it is also prone to make
someone distant, aloof, unsympathetic to the point of narcissism and
psychopathy. Those are the curses
of sublimatio taken to the extreme.
There are few more symbols
that appear in alchemical literature as well as in dreams and synchronicities
that are associated with sublimatio.
The symbol of a tower, particularly a very tall tower, is a common
sublimatio symbol. As youÕll
recall, the tower card in the Tarot deck carries sublimatio meanings –
someone who has isolated herself from the outside world, looking down on the
mere mortals with some disdain.
But along comes calcinatio – a fiery lightning bolt – to
send him crashing back to earth, to coagulate like the rest of us.
The mountaintop is another
sublimatio symbol. When Jehovah
wanted to impart something to his human creations, he would summon a prophet to
the mountaintop. Revelation occurs
on mountaintops. In addition,
think of Mount Olympus. The gods –
the archetypes – reside in this rarified place that is so inhospitable to
human beings.
Another sublimatio symbol is
the ladder. There is a passage
from Genesis that is full of sublmatio imagery:
Jacob
left Beersheba, and went toward Haran. He came to the place and stayed there
that night, because the sun had set. Taking one of the stones of the place, he
put it under his head and lay down in that place to sleep. And he dreamed that
there was a ladder set up on the earth, and the top of it reached to heaven;
and behold, the angels of God were ascending and descending on it! And behold,
the Lord stood above it [or "beside him"] and said, "I am the
Lord, the God of Abraham your father and the God of Isaac; the land on which
you lie I will give to you and to your descendants; and your descendants shall
be like the dust of the earth, and you shall spread abroad to the west and to
the east and to the north and to the south; and by you and your descendants
shall all the families of the earth bless themselves. Behold, I am with you and
will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will
not leave you until I have done that of which I have spoken to you." Then
Jacob awoke from his sleep and said, "Surely the Lord is in this place;
and I did not know it." And he was afraid, and said, "This is none
other than the house of God, and this is the gate of heaven."
Rising to heaven is another
symbol for sublimatio. It is a common mythological motif that a human is taken
up to heaven to meet the angels and even God himself. For instance, there is a Moslem legend that the prophet
Muhammad was taken through the seven realms of heaven to the presence of Allah
where his revelation occurred. There is a particularly fascinating example from
the Secrets of Enoch, an
apocryphal Jewish Christian text from the First Century CE, concerning a man
who is taken to heaven. Here is a
quote:
There
appeared to me two men, exceeding big, so that I never saw such on earth; their
faces were shining like the sun, their eyes too were like a burning light, and
from their lips was fire coming forth with clothing and singing of various
kinds in appearance purple, their wings were brighter than gold, their hands
whiter than snow.
They
were standing at the head of my bed and began to call me by my name.
And
I arose from my sleep and saw clearly those two men standing in front of me.
And
I saluted them and was seized with fear and the appearance of my face was
changed from terror, and those men said to me:
Have
courage, Enoch, do not fear; the eternal God sent us to you, and lo! You shalt
to-day ascend with us into heaven, and you shall tell your sons and all your
household all that they shall do without you on earth in your house, and let no
one seek you till the Lord return you to them.
The angels take Enoch to
seven heavens, each of which held a lesson and revelation for him. The first heaven was a revelation of
the course of the stars and of nature, the second heaven was a place of shadowy
darkness, the third heaven was the abode of the tree of life, the fourth heaven
held the secrets of astronomy, the fifth heaven was reserved for giants, the
sixth heaven was of the angels who rule the various places on earth, and the
seventh heaven was for the magnificent archangels and other higher beings of
heaven. Enoch returned to earth
with 366 books he wrote about all he had learned in the heavens, obeying the
command of an archangel: ÒSit and
write for all souls of humanity, however many are born, and address the places
prepared for them for eternity, even before the formation of the world.Ó
The Enoch myth reveals
another profound insight about sublimatio – it is a circulation, not a
one way journey. Typically, one
experiences sublimatio and then returns to earth, a coagulatio process, to live
out and integrate what has been learned from the archetypes. The Emerald Tablet says, Òascend with
great intelligence from earth to heave and again return to earth and unite
together the powers of higher things an lower things. Thus you will receive the
glory of the whole world and darkness will fly away from you.Ó Edinger describes this as a whole
series of lesser sublimatio experiences, punctuated by a rare greater
sublimatio. What is a lesser
sublimatio? Rising out of some
immediate challenge and getting a glimpse of deeper meaning or a larger pattern
behind it all, which allows one to go on despite terrible hardship. What, then, is a greater sublimatio? A revelation like the one received by
Enoch, from which one never returns to a comfortable earthly existence. The world never seems the same way
again.
Of course, the ultimate
sublimatio is death. The soul leaves the body and goes to its next level. Of course, if you believe in
reincarnation, of course, this is just a bigger circulation, when the soul
comes back into another body, for another lifetime of lessons and alchemical
experimentation. Jung had an experience of this final sublimatio, on which
Edinger made the following commentary:
What
does it mean psychologically to translate into eternity that which has been
created in time? Individual consciousness or realization of wholeness is the
psychological product of the temporal process of individuation. For that to be
made eternal is a mysterious idea. It seems to imply that consciousness
achieved by individuals becomes a permanent addition to the archetypal psyche. (Anatomy of the Psyche, p. 141)
I would like end with JungÕs
description of his greater sublimatio, which occurred when he was near death in
1944:
I had the feeling that everything was being sloughed away; everything I
aimed at or wished for or thought, the whole phantasmagoria of earthly
existence fell away or was stripped from me-an extremely painful process.
Nevertheless something remained; it was as if I now carried along with me
everything I had ever experienced or done, everything that had happened around
me. I might also say: it was with me and I was it. I consisted of all that, so
to speak. I consisted of my own history, and I felt with great certainty: this is
what I am. "I am this bundle of what has been, and what has been
accomplished."
This experience gave me a feeling of extreme poverty,
but at the same time of great fullness. There was no longer anything I wanted
or desired. I existed in an objective form; I was what I had been and lived. At
first the sense of annihilation predominated, of having been stripped or
pillaged; but suddenly that became of no consequence. Everything seemed to be
past; what remained was alail accompli, without any reference back to what had been. There was no longer any regret that anything had dropped
away or been taken away. On the contrary: I had everything that I was, and that
was everything. (MDR, p. 290ff).